It’s been a while. . .
I heard someone once say how much they hate it when bloggers start off a post by saying, “sorry I haven’t posted anything in so long.” So I’ve been trying to avoid that, but really, along with journaling, it just seems to be a compulsion. Maybe my audience isn’t big (for my journal it is just me) but you almost have this feeling that you are contributing to the greater collective consciousness and by not posting you aren’t participating. Truth is though, I’ve just been crazy busy with getting ready for our summer family camps. It’s hard not to feel like I am falling behind. It may be the first time in my professional life where I’m worried about letting other people down by falling behind in my work. In college, if you fall behind you just pull an all-nighter or something, but I really don’t have that luxury. Feeling so drained at the end of every day makes it tough too. I kicked around the idea of heading back into the office this evening but decided that I just really don’t have the energy to pull a 10 hour day right now. But, come rain or shine, the next three months will pass and before you know it, September will be here and I will have spent a year down here. It is really quite hard to believe. Sometimes it feels like I just got here but other times it feels like I’ve been here forever. Summer won’t be all bad and craziness though. I signed up last night for the Art and Soul School of Theology class at Vintage Faith. That should be a ton of fun. I kicked around the idea of doing a couple of the other ones but decided I’d rather take a class that might help me with more than just my existential sense of self. It will also be a great chance to work on my photography as a skill and as art, things I’m having a hard time doing right now. I feel like I’ve hit a little bit of a creative lull. Ever since the Vintage retreat when Matt and I took 500+ pictures it’s been hard to shoot just for the sake of shooting. I did have fun the other day shooting the surfers down at Lighthouse Point but I can’t exactly run down there every night. Eventually even that gets boring. Anyway, I’m just avoiding going to bed but I need to get sleep. For once I’m actually tired!
